the second in as many weeks. I should choose better reading material before bedtime.
but no. instead I was online reading David Lipsky's Rolling Stone piece on David Foster Wallace. very painful to read. and then, to make it worse, read an interview with Lipsky. In that interview Lipsky is asked why there doesn't seem to be anger towards DFW for committing suicide from his family and friends. This is Lipsky's reply:
"I think that anyone who had seen him in the last year saw a human being in incredible pain. So I think that they just understood — I think they thought it was terrible that the new drugs hadn't worked, and the Nardil didn't work when he returned to it. But there was no anger at all. His sister Amy said that she knew David wouldn't have done this to them if he could have found any way not to. I thought that was great and moving, you know. People just felt for him. They felt horrible knowing someone they loved was in that situation, that amount of pain."
is hard to comprehend that amount of pain.
and then I came across DFW's autopsy report via The Smoking Gun. there was a comment that he had bound his wrists with duct tape before hanging himself. it actually took me a moment to figure out why.